Did you know that we are 10% done with the new year? That means you still have 90% of this year to try new things, meet new people, form new relationships, admit you hurt someone. I’m sure you were not expecting that. But if we have gone through 10% of the new year and it feels like nothing has really changed, then maybe you’re what needs to change, or least stop doing things like they’ve been done. On Day 37 we discussed how dangerous gossip can be, and how the misrepresentation of the character of God led to a world filled with sorrow, pain, disease, and death. But what if you had the power to heal yourself physically, mentally and spiritually from sorrow, pain, and disease? And all you had to do was to say I’m sorry. Even when it’s not your fault…
In Matthew Jesus says an almost incredulous statement: If another believer sins against you, go privately and point out the offense. If the other person listens and confesses it, you have won that person back.” (Mattew 18:15). Jesus was explaining that if you come to the altar to pray and you know that someone has done something to you and this has cause a rift between the two of you, even if you were the party wronged, that you have the obligation to reach out to them. In fact, He says, leave your offering at the altar and go take care of this situation before you come back to pray.
What does it matter? Honestly, think about it? If someone did you wrong, why should you have to be the person to address them? Shouldn’t they know what they did was wrong, and come and “man-up” about it and say sorry? I agree wholeheartedly. But here’s the reality, a lot of times they don’t even know they wronged you. So you hold a grudge for years sometimes decades, and the other party doesn’t even know what you have against them! And do you know what holding grudges do to you? It literally destroys your immune system. It’s a scientific fact. By destroying your immune system, you open yourself to more diseases like cancer and heart disease! Don’t believe me? Check out these articles from reputable medical sources: Piedmont Healthcare, The Journal for the Association for Psychological Science, The Mayo Clinic. What these experts in their field are telling us, is what Jesus had said over 2000 years ago: Let it go. Of course, that’s easier said than done.
A few years ago (about 7 years ago) while I was at the DC airport waiting on a friend of mine who was picking me up, I got a “ding” from Facebook. It was a private message from someone that I had not really spoken to in about a decade. And that in itself was not the surprising factor, it was that we had not spoken in about 11 years on purpose. Even though I was the godmother of his child, we only had conversations out of necessity through text or polite hellos if we ran into each other. But we had not had a genuine conversation since we were teenagers.
He and I, let’s call him Abraham (Abe for short) were inseparable in high school. He was dating one of my best friends and the three of us were a wonderful camaraderie of love and acceptance. I never felt like the third wheel, and they purposefully made sure I was not left out of the friendship. Sadly in this world, all good things come to an end. And what a terrible end it happened to be. When they broke up, I was in the middle of it. Like a child in a divorce. I loved them both (and still do, to this day) and at 18 years old, I was forced to choose, whose side would I take? I took hers. But attempted to stay as neutral as possible. I never told the other party what their ex-significant other was doing. I didn’t want to feed that machine. I was hurt that my two best friends could not fix what had become irrevocably broken.
Believe it or not, Abe and I went to the same college, ended up working at the same hospital, and had the same friends. We couldn’t get out of each other’s lives. And I don’t think I ever wanted to. Fast forward 11 years from our last honest conversation to this “ding” from Facebook. It read something like this: Hey I’ve decided to forgive you and let everything go. The reason why is because while I was at church, the pastor made an appeal and explained that if we had grudges and anger in our hearts that we would not make to heaven. Because Jesus forgave us while we were sinners, and even while He was dying His final breaths were asking forgiveness for those who wronged Him. And at first, I didn’t want to answer the altar call, but I realized that I won’t go to hell for you.”
I was taken aback. WHAT?! This happened 7 years ago and we have never spoken about that remark. So much has happened in the last several years in his life that I missed because of brokeness of our relationship. He got married to an amazing woman, had 2 more kids, which I adore from a distance (I’m not a stalker but we do run into each other every once and a while, and it’s pleasant.) I tried to reach out to him when he first sent me that message, but he said there was no reason to bring it up again. He had forgiven me so let bygones be bygones. But I did not know that I had hurt him so much, and that in turn caused me sorrow. Truth be told, I still don’t know what I did to him, and every once in awhile sadness lingers in my heart when I think of it.
Even though years had gone by, and our lives had changed, I had wronged Abe and violated him in a way that meant I had sinned against him. The question is what is sin? “Every one who is guilty of sin is also guilty of violating Law; for sin is the violation of Law.” (1st John 3:4). Okay, so what is the Law?
“Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?” Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.” (Matthew 22:36-40). The Law that governs the Universe according to Jesus, is Love.
James 5:16 states: If you have sinned, you should tell each other what you have done. Then you can pray for one another and be healed. The prayer of an innocent person is powerful, and it can help a lot.” What James’ is saying here, is that if you’ve violated love towards someone you need to talk about it. Because talking about it brings healing. Interestingly enough what type of healing? The Greek word for healing here is iathēte, and this word is only used 2x in all of the New Testament. Once in James, which we just mentioned, another time in one of Peter’s letters: and He Himself bore our sins in His body on the cross, so that we might die to sin and live to righteousness; for by His wounds you were healed. (1st Peter 2:24).
The “healed” portion here is discussing the healing we need from broken hearts and crushed spirits. Luke chapter 4 Jesus quotes from the book of Isaiah to tell everyone what His initial purpose was to come here on this dingy little planet: “The Spirit of the Lord is on me because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to proclaim release to the captives, recovering of sight to the blind, to deliver those who are crushed” (4:18).
Jesus’ mission was to show us the heart of the Father, who loves us more than His own existence, and desires that His children get along and love each other. And sometimes we can get on that path by taking the first step and reach out… We have 90% of the year left to get this right. I’ll start: I’m sorry...